Hmm…. So it’s been seven months and no
baby. Did I jinks myself with my Disneyland antics?
Since our Disney trip, I followed up
by trying an ovulation kit. Let me tell you, it’s draining peeing into a cup
every morning so I can monitor my hormone surge for optimal ovulation time.
That month was obviously not a success.
I was
feeling like I was putting a lot of pressure on myself and everyone says its
not good to stress when trying to conceive, so I gave myself a break from the
ovulation kit. Even though I felt more “relaxed” this previous month, my cycle
began today...
I feel a
mix of emotions. Like I’m being served a nice tall glass of discouragement
oddly mixed with optimism with a dash of ‘don’t kid yourself’ (no pun
intended).
I can see the disappointment in Jabi too, when
I have to tell him that ‘it’ didn’t happen. He never makes me feel bad but I
can tell he wonders if something is wrong with him.
My OB tells me that couples should try
to wait at least a year before moving forward with infertility testing, but I
don’t think I would want to wait a full year, perhaps 10-11 months and if
nothing, then I'll at least get the ball rolling with setting up our first
consult.
I hope it doesn’t get that far though.
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